In my last long post I talked about my relationship, since that post my relationship has ended (for the time being.) I have a lot of thoughts on the situation, and I do believe that I will end up writing about them on this blog but I will wait a little longer until I have time to dedicate to expressing my thoughts and feelings.
I will say these few things for now: I am sad, I am hurt but I am not giving up. I don’t know if it’s me being a foolish heartbroken girl or if the universe is trying to tell me something but I don’t think it is fully over.
I think there are some issues that need to be fixed, I was told (by him) that something like this would happen and to be prepared. I wasn’t prepared at all but I know that I am not giving up just yet. The truth is; I want to wait until he comes home and his life is a bit more stable, it was unfair of me to put the pressure of a relationship on him when he was going into this situation.
We just spent 12 days together, it was like a mini-living together adventure. It made me realize some things and it made me wish I had done things differently. But overall I think it was a good experience, at least we can live in the same space without wanting to murder each other.
He is important and he is special, and I want to stick around a little bit more because I want to see how this turns out. I’m not ready to just give up.
…. to be continued?